breadcrumbs
passionfruit
little bird
drowning
rainbow
lost in you
clean
be
blue blood
god
mangled
is
somebody keeping score?
fading
drunk
my
awakening
the
eye of the beholder
of
blood and water (song of the twice born)
...ion
go
go 2
go 3 |
your pledge to me, beloved,
a vase of rosy tinted hue
to house the flowers
blossomed for eternity.
you would nourish them forever
with water from your body
from your heart
from your eyes -
tears of faith,
your sensitive whimpers,
the tears you had kept
hid from all others,
those you had shed waiting for me
because you had chosen me
when you hadn't even
known of my existence.
you loved me and
you knew me and
you prayed for me
to watch over you
when you wrapped yourself
in a scarf of discontent,
when you had only your clothes
to keep you warm
and candle flame to flicker
over your skin at night.
i was there beloved,
in every woman's face you beheld,
i was there beloved,
in the curve of every breast you caressed.
when did you stop believing
and feeding your faith...
you starved it to near death.
when did you stop believing
i would come to you
in your sleepless torment.
you called to me in my dreams
but your fear kept you silent,
whilst my own kept me deaf.
and now, beloved
those forever flowers
are losing their precious petals -
falling to the table
one by one
withering
with no eyes to look upon them.
the vase tint turning to blue.
it is me, beloved
i have come for us...
you look at me so cold,
you say it is too late,
that love is foolish fancy.
but I will not let you make
my tomorrows into yesterdays,
or send me back to where
i have already been.
the fruit of my past lies
bitter but discarded
and now you have made it so
every day and every night
i gratify you with my tears.
i think of you
and a smile mingles with a sigh,
a sigh with a drop of pride -
and i forget to breathe.
i want to shed my heart
because it is bleeding
and i don't know
how to make it stop.
and i am hurting
and i don't know
how to make the pain go away...
so i dive into the sea
to not feel my skin
the sea
where i cannot taste my tears
where i am perfectly blended
salt of the earth and salt of my eyes.
the sea
where everything is softened and refracted
where i can no longer feel
the sun burning prints
and life lines into my skin.
the sea
that cradles and rocks me in its womb,
where the light that penetrates to me
is at once spectral and angelic.
the sea
where i am but a child
dovetailed to the universe -
and momentarily you don't matter to me -
until i come up for air
and i open my eyes
to the world all over again.
what kind of fool am i
to have sworn loyalty to your shadow?
cursed you are for giving up...
we were so close
who will save us now, beloved?
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